Day One: St Peters

today was my first day at St Peters and it was crap!

to start off we were late for the first day and we missed registration because we were told the wrong dates. if that wasn't bad enough, i also didn't have a timetable. Great. this automatically made me uncomfortable because i like to be in control. needless to say i spent the whole day lost.

to really put the cherry on top of it, the people that were suppose to look after me, didn't. so i spent my breaks tagging along with people who either didn't seem to be interested in me or people that i cant handle. that is really not a good feeling. i felt like such a loner and that made me feel even more uncomfortable (in my monkey suit).

oh did i mention that i got a little present in the form of four huge blisters from my new school shoes.

on the positive side class was really good. my drama teacher is excellent, and I'm going to be busy with drama most of the time. i also cant wait to start cultural activities. history is also bound to be amazing.

i really hope the year gets better as i go along I'm praying that there will be some sort of brake through on camp.

P.S. did i mention that the variety of hot boys is excellent! ;)

what a day...

so today started off way to early for my liking! at the crack of 5:30 i was up and getting ready to go and watch my dad skydive. although my views on the matter are very different to his i am willing to support him because he does just that and more for me. as it turns out I'm very proud of him!

once we had finished at the drop zone we went to visit my cousin, Jardine, because she is leaving tonight for Miami! yeah I'm so jealous but its not to play, but to work (shes boarding her first ship!) of course tears were shed and I'm gonna miss her dearly but i thank God every day for Facebook! :) we then had MacDonald's, yum! when i returned home i found out, to my horror, just how sun burnt i really am! argh, I'm like a frikken tomatoe! i really don't like summer and the sun at the best of times. oh well...

needless to say i spent the rest of my evening with raw potatoes on my face (yes potatoes, apparently it is one of the best natural remedies for sunburn - i have yet to seen proof of this claim) and after sun on my body.

Life is way to short!

i found out today that one of my friends from primary school died on new years eve - that's right passed away! i cant believe that he is gone - and so suddenly! it really is sad. this has made me realize that life to way to short to worry about the stupid things and that we really need to cherish all the moments that make life so unique. i have decided to stop worrying (coz honestly all it does is age you and give you pimples!) about the small things and live in the moment more. as much as this a shock to the system it is also wake call - one with the resounding message of "get off your ass and do something useful!".

God is good

Yesterday was new years and what a difference it made to pray the new year in with family. i feel so much more secure about the new year! this year has been a trying one, in almost all areas of my life, and as much as I'm glad to wave that year good-bye i will never wave the memories away because lets be honest we did make some kick ass memories. 2009 brought laughs and tears, hellos and goodbyes, trying times and good times but most of all it brought lessons - vital ones at that - and i thank God for that. i cant wait to see what 2010 has in store. there are a lot of things i don't know but i do know that 2010 is the year of opportunity and i cant wait to grasp all of those moments!

The end...

Its the end of the year, and the end of a season. im moving schools and at first i was really sad to be leaving, but i realized life is a bitter sweet symphony. so i got over it and now im really excited. i packed away grade 9 and am ready to start a new year and neew season. to all my Knight friends, i love you and wouldnt be the same person i am today without you. to all my teachers (especially Mrs Simpson and Mr Fell), your input in my life has been so important. thank you for teaching me and tolerating me, it is much appreciated. i hope to see you soon.

Lucky

I visited a home for metally disabled and handicapped people today and as you can imagine it was a pretty draining experience but an experience none the less. It made me realise how lucky i am. Yes I have issues, complexes and inferiorities, but I can walk, talk, learn and live a "normal" life. This probably sounds very cliche but it shouldn't, there is nothing cliche about being abused until you cant function, or being abandoned because there is something wrong with you.

The truth is there is something wrong with us all, so how can we justify ostracising these people - and that's what they are, people - when all they want is to be accepted, loved and cared for? We all what these things, don't we? We probably want a bit more like money, designer brands and so on, but does that stuff really matter at the end of the day? No not really.
That's what we miss, it doesn't matter. We live, we die, we get hurt and we move on, but most importantly we love. Do think people who have problems that are a bit more pronounced than ours can say that? Will you deny them that chance?

Thank You

how bout getting off these antibiotics
how bout stopping eating when I'm full up
how bout them transparent dangling carrots
how bout that ever elusive kudo

thank you india
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence

how bout me not blaming you for everything
how bout me enjoying the moment for once
how bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
how bout grieving it all one at a time

thank you india
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence

the moment I let go of it was the moment
I got more than I could handle
the moment I jumped off of it
was the moment I touched down

how bout no longer being masochistic
how bout remembering your divinity
how bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
how bout not equating death with stopping

thank you india
thank you providence
thank you disillusionment
thank you nothingness
thank you clarity
thank you thank you silence

Alanis Morissette