Life is way to short!

i found out today that one of my friends from primary school died on new years eve - that's right passed away! i cant believe that he is gone - and so suddenly! it really is sad. this has made me realize that life to way to short to worry about the stupid things and that we really need to cherish all the moments that make life so unique. i have decided to stop worrying (coz honestly all it does is age you and give you pimples!) about the small things and live in the moment more. as much as this a shock to the system it is also wake call - one with the resounding message of "get off your ass and do something useful!".

Lucky

I visited a home for metally disabled and handicapped people today and as you can imagine it was a pretty draining experience but an experience none the less. It made me realise how lucky i am. Yes I have issues, complexes and inferiorities, but I can walk, talk, learn and live a "normal" life. This probably sounds very cliche but it shouldn't, there is nothing cliche about being abused until you cant function, or being abandoned because there is something wrong with you.

The truth is there is something wrong with us all, so how can we justify ostracising these people - and that's what they are, people - when all they want is to be accepted, loved and cared for? We all what these things, don't we? We probably want a bit more like money, designer brands and so on, but does that stuff really matter at the end of the day? No not really.
That's what we miss, it doesn't matter. We live, we die, we get hurt and we move on, but most importantly we love. Do think people who have problems that are a bit more pronounced than ours can say that? Will you deny them that chance?

Everything is not as it seems...

i have a best friend, we have been friends for over 6 years now; we have been through a lot, good bad and ugly but we have always stuck together. Bear that in mind.

this weekend was my best friends birthday party, and the build up was awesome. she told me that there was this guy that she thought would be my soul mate. okay, great. i met the guy, he was quiet cool. during the course of the evening we were talking and it came out that she kissed him, wow, i felt like a ton of bricks had just fallen on me. i felt betrayed and used, heck i still feel that way. Why the f did she try and set me up with some guy she had already bagged? i was the bigger person and walked away. but I'm still really hurt. it may seem petty, but to me, you don't do that!

words like selfish , backstabber, dishonest and bitch come to mind.

i had a choice to forgive her and move on, or hold a grudge. of course i forgave her, but i still feel hurt and abused. Everything was not as it seemed. i had to learn a life lesson.

Life lessons suck, they hurt like a dog and you never good about it until, like, five years later!!I wonder how many more of these joyous moments i will have to go through....