Fear

tonight was my awards evening. i did pretty well, came second in my grade and walked away with 6 awards. yeah i did okay but I'm afraid. I'm afraid that next year it will be different, that i wont be accepted, i wont stand out, i wont be recognised. and as soon as these thoughts creep into my clever little mind, the what ifs arrive. what if i don't become a leader, what if I'm not liked? and the list goes on. i haven't had my "the what ifs don't matter" moment yet but I'm getting there. the more i think about moving, the less i cry. I'm getting there; but until then I'm waiting for the tears to dry and the penny to drop...